Second week done: Epic fail

This is just embarrassing. Last week was a disaster. It all just seems like a blur to be honest. And not because I drank the week away, I'm actually sober right now. Not by choice, I'm not Wonder Woman. No, I've had to stop drinking because of a heartburn issue I've had for a few weeks now. I've given up coffee, alcohol, carbonated drinks, lemons, citrus, tomatoes, garlic, onions, pepper, anything spicy, meat and joy. I've gotten to the stage where I'm grabbing my boyfriends face and inhaling his coffee breath like a malnourished vampire. I want a glass of wine! correction, I want a bottle of wine. I want to bathe in a tub of merlot as I gorge on spaghetti bolognese and garlic bread whilst Lady And The Tramp plays on TV. But sadly 'tis all but a dream. I've had to give this all up until I get better. On top of that, I haven't been able to do some of the workouts I planned for this challenge like pilates and dance cardio as they exacerbate my condition. I've been doing yoga for heartburn, hiking and running but recently I've found I might need shelf the running too. It just sucks! I was starting to not completely detest it, and I could feel my stamina and lung capacity increasing.

But I have to listen to my body. And as much as I've tried to ignore this, I can't do that anymore. It's not healthy. And after all, this challenge is about improving my health habits, I just envisioned it differently. But don't we always. I did manage to get four days of exercise in last week, that's still above average for me, but I think it's safe to say that 28 days in a row might take longer than 28 days. Baby steps.

What I learned last week:

• There have to be allowances for flexibility when working to achieve a goal.

• Beating yourself up about something you can't change or have already done is pointless.

• Not drinking definitely has its benefits (she says reluctantly)

What I will focus on this week:

• Discovering new healthy foods I can eat instead of getting annoyed about what I can't eat.

• Finding new creative ways to exercise that don't aggravate my condition.

• Being smug around my drunk friends when I know I'll be the one laughing in the morning.

I just have to accept I'm having a physical issue and stop resisting it or beating myself up about it. This is my obstacle right now. A big fat blob of a hurdle. I have no choice but to lean into it and go with the flow or the blob will swallow me whole. I'll have to tailor my goal around this problem and be ok with the outcome not being exactly what I hoped for. And I will be. I'm carrying on. This is a perfectly cliche'd example of when life gives you lemons and you have to figure out a way to make some sweet lemonade.

Man, I'd kill for lemonade. Ugh.

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