First challenge done: Off to a great start
- Heida Reed
- Jun 4, 2018
- 3 min read
Not! Really not. I wouldn’t be surprised if at this point you’re all like “She doesn’t mean it this fool, she’s not serious about this”. Bear with me. For a little longer at least. The reason I started with diet and exercise is I felt it would be the perfect start to be fit and healthy to to take the rest of the challenges on. Yes, I’ve only completed this one challenge (‘completed’ doesn’t feel like the right word really) but I wouldn’t be surprised if this is and will remain the hardest one. It. was. so. HARD. It was so hard that I’d say I failed about 70% of the time. Granted, there were health issues that definitely got in the way as well as two of my closest friends getting married a week apart from one another in different countries. I’m sorry, was I not supposed to have the midnight mini hotdogs and the gooey marshmallow crepes and the Domino’s pizza that was ordered later in the night? Very welcomed I might add. Even though I was full to the brim I became very concerned when I realised I hadn’t had any wedding cake but not to worry, I made room. I always make room. This is all totally the happy couple's faults by the way. I’ll send them a bill for my work out classes. On top of everything I am sitting on my fifth flight out of seven in two weeks! Travelling is my favourite thing but living out of a suitcase is my least and it makes eating well and exercising even trickier! How do people do it? You're aliens aren't you? We just don't know it.
So, did it go as planned? Absolutely positively not. But there were a few things I managed to work on. Let us focus on them (clutching at straws here):
I definitely increased the times I worked out a week. Say average 3-4 times. Not bad for me, truly. And I actually liked doing them most of the time. It’s much harder to get to it then to actually do it. Although I need to stop at my own leisure and pick flowers or my nose sometimes.
I improved my diet here and there, but I have a long way to go. I allowed the skinny boyfriend to order for me sometimes which I know is pathetic as I should be able to make my own decisions. But alas, here we are and lo and behold, I cannot. Not yet. So I took the advantage of my California ‘avocadofficionado’, and relinquished control for a portion of my food choices. It didn’t go well. It created a lot of resentment in our relationship and before we knew it I was force feeding him an almond croissant for solidarity. But when in doubt, act like an infant and have a real grown up make decisions for you. Don’t forget to sulk during.
I am more forgiving with my body. I’ve probably gained weight these past two weeks actually, but the good news is, I don’t care! I really, truly don’t. I think it’s because I know I won’t be seeing the results I might’ve envisioned at the end of this challenge and so what is the point of beating myself up about it. And truthfully, Of course it is a good thing to be healthy and in top shape, but I feel just as beautiful when I’m soft around the edges as when I’m smaller. Probably a little more even. It’s only societal pressure and the industry I’m in that gives us this rigid image of the perfect shape, but you know what? fuck. that. I hope I can stick to this feeling. Don’t get me wrong, I still find things to pick at all the time, and wonder how I can fix it or improve it, but the next step for me is to really focus on catching myself when I do it and decrease the self criticism every day. I hope you can join me in this.
So, did I swap my habit? No. Did I get a little closer to it? Maybe. I’ll get back to you in a few more months. All in all it was a pretty imperfect attempt but who likes perfection anyway? Stay tuned for the announcement of my next challenge that I’ll start in a few days. Fingers crossed I get a higher score this time around.
To be completely honest; A quinoa kale salad is ok I guess but pizza will always reign supreme. Sempre! And if I can’t go for a run without randomly stopping to pick flowers, I’d rather pick flowers.
H
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